FRIENDZONED. (again) haha

Oo. nafrifriendzone din ang mga babae.

gugma. the painful type of gugma hit me again. this time, it hit me hard. very hard. super hard. most hardestest.

So I fell victim again of someone’s flirt-ness dubbed as “kindness” and “gentleman-ness”. Na-fall, umasa, nag-expect, nafriendzone, nadisappoint, nasaktan. Haha. Pinagtatawanan ko nalang to ngayon pero nong loka-loka days na di ko tanggap na nafriendzone na naman ako, I cried like a toddler who had just lost her favorite toy. Iyak na walang patid with matching bubbles pa ng sipon. Hahahahuu

To the guy who friendzoned me: You should have been the perfect “one” -- or so I thought. You had all the qualities that I was praying for. You didn't waste the trust that I invested on you. You didn't take advantage. And I'm really thankful because you treated me as a VIP. But I guessed you were just brought up by your parents to be the best guy friend anyone could have. And that you make everyone around you feel special. Salamat. Salamat kasi "you made me stronger by breaking my heart". Chozzz lang. Seriously salamat. I know better now --- na super no no talaga ang maging assumera.

My fault for misinterpreting your sweetness. My fault kasi nahulog ako na di naman dapat. :’( Worse, I don’t have the right to be crying over you in the first place. Sheeemmmsss #hugotpamore

So today, I vow to dismiss any feelings towards you. I vow to  stop making actions that will lead my feelings to grow towards you. Why? Because what I’m feeling for you is not love. Love should not be jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love should be honest. Love should bring joy and happiness. Guess what? I’m feeling the opposites with you. Pagkapait.

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Pag sinabi na kasi ni God na hindi, huwag na ipilit. Kasi alam Niya na hindi ka fit doon. Kaya kapag nagpumilit ka pa, ikaw lang din ang masasaktan. Parang beer at wine lang yan. Parang masarap ang combo pero pag pinilit, sobrang sakit sa tiyan at hangover ang aabutin mo.

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So the journey continues...the search for “ONE TRUE LOVE”. It sounds stupid but I’ll tell you the journey will be worth it. Besides, everything sounds stupid to those who are seeking til they see the light that real and true love brings. :) Charssss. Grabe hugot Inday! 

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Breathe in. Breathe out. It’s worth trying and worth fighting for. It’s okay for your heart to bleed disappointment--you know better now--it will help you find hope and faith again that someone out there is willing to reciprocate the love, ready to love you whole, and ready to share with you the journey of a lifetime…